Half a year

Hey2... Again... I am back... It has been half a year back.. Looking back at the last post, owh it was my 21st lunar birthday... Time.. time.. time... you really pass me by too quickly... I dont have any chance to grasp you in hand... Why i will end up in blogspot today?? at this time?? i was quite curious actually.. suddenly there is a strong desire who drives me here... Maybe it's God.. HE wanted me to look back at what i promise half year ago.. Did i do that?? Hmnn... It has been a very very tiring half year... Days are very normal but it was rather tough.. I never has that strong feeling of loneliness before... Now, I tend to be very quiet.. I dont even has much intention to make new friends.. Maybe, or it is indeed, I prefer alone now... Finally i realise, what is called friend?? Am I a failure?? it might be a joke though.. I dont have a single friend there... Not even one... I was so frusfrated with the surroundings, the people there, everything there doesnt seem allright for me.. and this is the first time i feel like i want to go home as soon as possible... i dont even want to stay there for an extra second.... i am really down... nothing is worst than this... I try my best to start to love it.. but i still couldnt find the sense of belonging... or am i too picky?? i might have meet the correct one, but i didnt realise?? no no no... even the last one i feel all right is not all right now.. I know, I have to wear a mask from now... A mask which covers me from happiness and loneliness... I have to be strong.. Staying strong alone is tough, but I will do my ever best... Learning to adapt while struggling... Strive until the very last moment.. I know now, only a good result can guarantee you everything... So.. time to reflect.. Take away all the unwanted and keep the good one... I know you can do it as you believe in yourself and GOD.. They will help you and guide you throughout the way..

Hoho.. First post in 2010...

Hello everyone.. haha.. i wonder who am i hello-ing to?? this is one of the most rusted blog i think... Time to post something here.. It is the time to do so.. Huhu... why i choose today?? erm... might be my 21st... (owh.. its lunar calendar) and i am proud to say, i share the same birthday with prince william today... hohoho.. it's once in my life i think... haha... so.. wish me Happy Birthday!!! looks so old now.. i cant believe i am actually 20th now... there is no more one in front of my age... sobb...but anyway.. i hope it will be a great year ahead... and for the rest of my twenties.. please be as merry as before... Good luck YSH... you can do it.. kick away the laziness and some weakness(ehem... something which you know i know God know)... Move ahead with a better spirit... although i knew that you are so weak.. when you are facing temptation... i knew i always weak in resisting such thing... >< Hmnn... waiting for someone who can guide me through all the way... :)