Hello friends… so long time I haven’t post anything in my blog.. so sorry.. you all might think I have give up to continue it.. No, you are wrong.. I am just lack of topic to write about… Days go by in a blink of eye.. 365 days passed by my side without giving me any sign… I went through one complete year but what actually I have done? When I asked myself this question, I actually cant get the exact answer. Omg.. at this moment, I feel that I have wasted this 365 days… Am I?
Review of 2008…
January: I can remember my Shanghai tour very well.. then followed by Kuching trip… then started my wasting time journey.. sound so bad..
February: It is Chinese New Year. After that start to feel worried, what would my result used to be? Others time, is just sleep and eat.. eat and sleep.. sometimes even excrete also got problem..
March: The most heart breaking month.. No need to say again my sadness… Even now when I think back, tears is coming down again… Why? May be I pay not enough effort? Or this is just fate? But I can tell you, I don’t expect this to happen on me.. It is not fair at all… It is the worst to be second when you are always first…
April: Early part is working hard for all sorts of application.. But final result is: what I want I don’t get, what I don’t want I get? Is the world fair? No,… for the second time…
May: May be another desperate month.. I feel so alone.. That’s why I made a wrong decision.. Feel So sorry to you… If I would given a chance, I wont repeat it again.. for sure…
June: My 18th birthday.. I celebrate with family… because all my friends have started their new life.. left only me.. but look forward to start mine also.. the last day for this month…
July: New life.. Alone outside.. no friends at all.. why no one with me? But feel lucky as adapt myself quite well.. Get to know new friends.. but who is the one can be categorized as friend?
August: Busy life.. everyday repeat the same route.. class library hostel room… hostel room class library hostel… even my housemate say, why you like to hide in room?
September: Have my first holiday… Make a quite big decision because don’t want regret later.. At the end of it, farewell for my dear yy.. so happy that night.. because can meet all my schoolmates again.. really miss the study life with them.. it is so different in college..
October: YY finally fly off.. So miss her… because she is the one next to me for so many years.. feel like lack of something now.. latter part of October.. a series of friends birthday
November: Studies getting tougher.. while I am getting more lost… started to think, am I regret now? May be… but I cant turn back.. it is an dead end..
December: first week is exam time… later part I spent it with sleep and eat again… do nothing at all.. feel so bad… cant feel the happiness of Christmas and new year.. just what turn up is, I am dead.. I lost my soul… how can I look for it? Where is it? Feel so sad, so sorry.. I haven’t try my best, I know.. but I have no motivation at all… why?
In conclusion, what I have done? Nothing.. my 2008 is so meaningless.. 2008 bye.. i dont want to repeat it anymore.. no please...
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